Thursday, January 31, 2008

A new feel in a new ambiance: Learn to love!

Say hello to Zahira in Blogspot!

After about two and a half years blogging in Friendster, I finally moved to Blogspot. I dunno why I did that.. may be getting into a new environment could be a motivation for me to continue writing. I noticed, ideas come in really scarcely for me. The thinking of writing or commenting about something is there.. but all those thinking are kinda personal.. and that I wouldn't want my blog to sound so personal.. I'm no celebrity.. nobody would wanna read, haha.

Okay2. So how does it feel already being 3 months here in this skycraper? Well.. I think the exact word to describe it is WEIRD. If there is any young reader of this blog, take it from me kid, working is boring, unless you work for yourself, in your own company, where you are your own boss, and no one is gonna have your KPI and Leadership evaluated, everyday! (okay, now I feel so immature.. or better, kiasu) But why work still?? Haha.. it's all about the money man.. and if I'm not working, God knows how Mom will nag me.. and I won't be able to get myself that nice wardrobe.

You know what, I just realize, for the past 6 years, I have not really asked myself what is it that I wanna do with my life. No, UTP was not in the list, doing electrical engineering also wasn't there.. not even working as an HR personnel! Haha.. and right now, I asked myself, what do I REALLY want in life.. if it is concerning about my 'periuk nasi', I am clueless. I have indulgences, but those indulgences.. well.. they are not approved by my folks, haha. So, no say about it. Looks like I had better control of my junior years compared to now as an adult. No wonder Peter Pan didn't wanna grow up, haha. But then, by not growing up, one will never learn. Life is not always a pot of honey. Life is tasteful. And not all tastes come into one's liking, am I not right?

Nevertheless, we always have a choice to make. Afterall, to be happy or not, it is up to us to choose. Though I know that Capricorns don't really fall for or change for something as fast, but the liking or hating will come eventually. Of course, you can't really fake it when you love or hate something.

Right now, I'm constantly thinking of 'what's in it for me'. I used to believe that that phrase is somewhat selfish. But gradually, I come to think that being selfish is okay at times. Working for someone else; the company's goal might not be your aspirations. And that, you start to think, what are you doing in the company. My senior manager always said that Generation Y are an impatient breed. I think I would agree. Many of the young executives are leaving. I do not know how the bosses will strategize on this. What's more.. the Generation X, the vastly-experienced bosses, are retiring soon.

Ah... again, it's a choice to make. In life, we have to strategize our own life path. Challenging or not, demanding or not, it is us who decide. I am a big girl already. Come what may, I'll face it with a positive mind, a strong heart, and good will.

So should you. No exception.


desh said...

Hei. You back! With some hard stuff. Cool!

What we should "want" in life? actually?
Different people have different needs in life. If we were born in the jungle in Burma, I am confident the only thing we want is truce and peace and free from landmines. It's hard to imagine what is a new BMW 3 series and a sea-view condo with swimming pool, when you have to look at your back everytime you work in the paddy field. (Hei! Why this sounds like Rambo 4)
What if we were born 10,000 years B.C with all the sabertooth tigers and the mammoths? Different needs eh? (Hei! this film is not out yet! March!)
But we were born in malaysia in 21st century. So if we ask ourselves what do we want, it can be confusing. It's easier to think about food and shelter but beyond that, it is hard to achieve.

Most of us go to school and learn what we are taught by our parents and teachers. We don't challenge their ideas. Don't blame us. Don't blame our parents. They just don't have enough information about life.
The only way we can survive this life is by going through the life experience, itself. Just go through it with ethics and responsibility, i don't guarantee success but we will be remembered as a good person.
My advice to myself: get as much information as you can, about "life", and I will do OK.

Sorry for my disastrous linguistic writing skill . I scored 50% in linguistic in Tickle's classic IQ test. Haha. Better at visual mathematics.

azamil said...

welcome to blogspot. i've always wondered why people blogged at frenster..heh!

hv to agree with u. well,we have to live with it la kan. papepun, alwiz remember that this is not the end of the road. in fact, we just entered the elevated highway, leaving behind the old trunk road. (altho, using the trunk road tu xde toll hohoho). elevated hway = fast lane = faster to reach destination = extra cost.

if u feel HR is not for you, then by all means, upon confirmation state this thing to your boss.

the Company holds incomparable opportunities!

(propaganda HR la nih heheh)

desh said...

Zahira wrote:
"working is boring, unless you work for yourself, in your own company, where you are your own boss, and no one is gonna have your KPI and Leadership evaluated, everyday!"

Yes that is true except one thing.
"Nobody is telling you what to do" is a problem.
Well think about it.

It is easier if there is someone out there to tell you what to do. If things go bad that person is accountable for his command, it is his fault and he is to blame.

Imagine if you have to make a decision but you don't have a clue what to do. Seriously, it is easier if there is somebody else to tell you what to do.

Macam lawak bunyi je. tapi betul tau. Haha.

Sharifah Zahira said...

Hmm, yeah.. i think that is one disturbing factor en. Dayat. U know what.. I got confusing directions and vague instructions most of the time.. and u know that will result in us doing the thing over again to correct what went wrong.. haha.. life, life..

I dunno.. is it me who was trained to become meticulous in receiving orders (cheh.. mcm polis lak) or am i just pendek akal sikit to not understand what was instructed, haha..

ok2.. byknye ketidakpuasan hati.. anyway, my boss sumenye perempuan.. so u get the picture la.. haha..

mati la ira if my boss reads this. i'll let it be 'ah, but then..' je la.. haha..

desh said...

Kalau bos u masih budak2 macam kita2 ni mungkin dia ada masa utk baca blog ni, tapi rasanya diorang dah tua so diorang ada banyak kerja lain. haha. (jaga anak, masak, kemas umah, etc)

Our superior usually assume that we should know everything.
I disagree with their mentality, but unfortunately most of the bosses is like that.

Satu benda yang u kena hati-hati.
Staff yang bagus macam u ni akan ada bos yang akan suka ambil kesempatan. "Kesempatan" meaning kerja yang biasanya staff lain tak nak buat bos you akan bagi kat u.
Kalau u jenis yang rajin dan tak banyak bantah lagi bahaya, lagi la banyak kerja u kena buat.

So remember to play the game carefully.

ALL THE BEST. and welcome back!